Bahamas Trip (Part 5): Boarding the Ship

February 20th, 2012

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After our romantic walk along the beach where our every move was being watched, we decided to eat some dinner. As we walked along the street, I felt a strange sense of being home, only because it looked like a third world country like Guatemala, where I grew up. And the other thing was that I heard Spanish everywhere, from people talking, to the radio announcers of music blaring along the street.

I remembered having a delicious paella when I was in Spain, back on my “Nightmare through Europe” backpacking tour, before I was married. So when I saw a paella in one of the restaurants, my eyes lit up, and we decided to eat dinner. It was an outdoor cafe with a beautiful mural with bright colors on the walls. We sat beside a fish tank. We were served a disgusting, cold, rubbery paella that hardly had any seafood in it, completely unlike the paella in the window. I comforted my husband that false advertising was totally acceptable in third world countries, and who cares that it cost a lot of money because they were poor, and with our being ripped off, they could go and feed their families. So it was kind of like a donation of sorts. We laughed at how bad it was.

Then we went back to the hotel room and decided to go swimming. There was also a hot tub, and palm trees surrounded the pool. I felt like I was inside a movie set. It looked so perfect that it was almost surreal.

The next morning we woke up surrounded by a poofy white duvet. I had coffee out on the balcony, looking down on the exotic-looking pool, with the ocean in the distance. I felt giddy with joy.

The front bell hop told me where we could put our bags after we checked out of the hotel, because we couldn’t board the ship until 2pm. We took a walk along the beach after breakfast. The clouds became overcast, and since we didn’t have an umbrella, we quickly walked back to the hotel to get our bags and take a taxi to the ship. We were glad to arrive early because there was a long line of people.

As we boarded the ship, we were handed a paper that said we would not be leaving. A hurricane was coming directly to San Juan, and no ship in its right mind would disconnect with the dock when a hurricane was about to strike. After checking in and dropping off our bags in the room, we looked at the ocean water. The sky was an eerie green, and the water was bizarre, all choppy in different sections. I’ve never seen anything like it. My husband and I just looked at each other…

Suddenly an announcement was made that the ship would be leaving immediately, two hours before schedule. Anyone not on the ship would be flown to Barbados and meet the ship there. We pulled off from the side of the dock, and the ship moved so quickly; I was surprised that we weren’t thrown backwards.

(Stay tuned for part 6 of my Bahamas trip story, to see if we outrun the hurricane and actually have the honeymoon of our dreams despite all the odds…)

Bahamas Trip (Part 4): Misgivings

February 18th, 2012

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On the night before the Bahamas trip, I suddenly had misgivings. My sister called me the previous week and told me that even if there was a hurricane, I have a husband who loves me, so everything would be fine. Um… no. My husband and I were burned out and felt like crap, and the last thing we needed was to board a ship in the middle of a hurricane, puking vomit at each other. If that was going to be the case, I would rather not go, thank you very much.

I felt nervous. Our bags were packed, and then my sister called. She said that she was watching the news, and the hurricane had gone a different direction, and she prayed that we would have sunshine every day, and she had so much joy that I would.

Even though it was just words in the air, for some reason I believed her. After hanging up the phone, I felt excited as I put my bags by the front door.

We woke up early, and my parents arrived. My mother walked in, since she was going to watch the children, even though they were still sleeping. My mom handed each of us a bagged breakfast, and off we went with my dad to the airport.

We had to board four airplanes that day. On the longest flight, which was over five hours, Alan and I weren’t even seated together. I told the man next to me that I was going with my husband on the honeymoon I never had. Within minutes, he had rearranged the seats so that I could sit with my husband. Later on a different flight I saw an angry woman who was yelling about her rights, that she should be seated with her 12-year-old. Nobody changed seats for her.

When we landed in Puerto Rico, we went to our hotel, which was right on the beach. It was my husband’s idea to leave a day early because there were so many flights, we could easily have missed our cruise if one of the flights was delayed. Some of the layovers were only 20 minutes. Yes, we had to run like two kids through the airport a couple of times.

But the fact that we had come a day early meant that we had an extra day of vacation, the first vacation my husband and I had ever had in 14 years of marriage. The hotel was gorgeous and exotic, but it had been inexpensive because it was attached to a casino. I have no opinion about gambling, and my husband and I were too busy walking along the beach in the moonlight to waste our time in a casino.

Yes, the night was a perfect temperature, and the moon shone down on the beach. I had talked in Spanish to one of the guards, who told us to take off our watches before going on the beach. I asked if it was dangerous to walk on the beach at night, and he basically said that you get attacked if you have a watch, but you’re fine if you’re not wearing a watch.

I know what you girls are thinking: why on earth would I walk along a beach if it was dangerous? But I felt completely and utterly safe, almost as if angels were surrounding me. I wanted Alan to throw me down into the foam of the waves and make love to me right then and there, but he said as much as he would love to do that, there were four pairs of eyes watching us. I said, “Really?” I looked around and saw nobody. Alan, being the son of a police officer, pointed out the four men who were hiding in the shadows in different locations.

(Stay tuned for part 5 of my Bahamas trip story, where we boarded the ship on the same day that a hurricane struck…)

Bahamas Trip (Part 3): Small Miracles

February 17th, 2012

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My three sisters flew in to Spokane before I even got back from Oregon. One night we were playing card games late into the night at my dining room table. We were alone, since my husband was on the computer in the office. Between rounds of Dutch Blitz, my sisters wanted to have a fashion show with my Bahamas wardrobe that God had so sweetly given me.

The first dress I came out in was my white one. My sisters were so wowed by it; they couldn’t believe how good I looked. One of my sisters said I had the body of a 20-year-old. I looked at her, because I was 40, and my real honeymoon (which was so nightmarish because of the sin of another man) took place during my 20’s. I ran to the bathroom to look at myself in the mirror, and I don’t know how, but my body looked like I was in my 20’s. I broke down and cried right then and there, because the best years of my married life were wasted because of tragedy, and I thought I would never get those years back. But God gave me back the years the locusts had eaten.

“Then I will make up to you for the years that the swarming locust has eaten… And you shall have plenty to eat and be satisfied, and praise the name of the Lord your God, who has dealt wondrously with you; then my people will never be put to shame.” (Joel 2:25-26)

And this verse came to pass. And I had joy.

There were so many other little miracles that took place in preparation for us leaving to the Bahamas. My mother had been burned out from watching my children for an entire week between the two conferences in Seattle and Oregon. If I had known, I would have come home, but she never said it was too much for her.

Basically, everything else had fallen into place: the low cruise price, the low plane ticket prices, the Bahamas wardrobe that made me cry… But now I didn’t know who would take care of the kids for a week. Both sets of grandparents are able-bodied, but they are not used to four children with lots of energy, so it’s really an inconvenience to them. I was sad that this detail was not taken care of yet. It was days before the cruise. I almost just hired a babysitter, even though, truth be told, we didn’t have the money at this point, because we had already paid for everything, including the excursions.

I sighed.

Then one night I needed to drop off something at my mom’s house, and she told me to come in. My dad was at an elder’s meeting at the church, so I decided to hang out with my mom. We started chatting, and the subject of watching the kids came up. I was so stressed out that I almost started crying. I said, “Mom, I wish you understood that God is giving me back the honeymoon I never had. I’ve told you of all the miraculous things that have led up to this point. God wants us to go. And yet I don’t want to burden you with the kids. But I don’t have the money to hire a babysitter for a week.”

Suddenly my mom’s face changed. I’m certain it was the Holy Spirit. In one moment she was upset about watching the kids, and in the next moment, she had joy about it. It was impossible. But I saw her face, and I knew the Holy Spirit did it. My mother is a godly woman. She was tired, but the Holy Spirit took her over, and she felt joy anyway. She started talking about all the things she wanted to do with my kids, and she was excited. Only God could have done that.

As soon as I drove home that night, I looked at my phone messages. My sister texted me that she had been praying about the babysitting for the Bahamas during the past hour, and that she had been on her knees for an entire hour about it.

I fell to the floor and cried for joy and gratitude, texting her about what happened, and about how my mom had responded. We both felt incredible joy.

(Stay tuned for part 4 of my Bahamas trip story, where my sister prayed for crazy things I never would have thought of, and how all those things came to pass and more…)

Bahamas Trip (Part 2): The White Dress

February 16th, 2012

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Ever since I was a little girl, I always wanted a beautiful white dress that was gauzy, that would make me look dreamy on a beach. Whenever I thought about my honeymoon, I would envision myself standing on a beach with turquoise water behind me, and the wind blowing my beautiful white dress and my long red hair behind me. I never told anyone about this dream. Only God knew.

While Alan and I were in Oregon before the conference, we stayed at the house of one of Alan’s friends. As a thank you present we wanted to get them a basket with some gourmet foods in it. I told Alan that Ross Dress for Less had good baskets, so we pulled into the parking lot. As we walked through the store, I noticed a white gauzy dress, hanging alone amidst various other dresses. It was my dream dress. I was stunned as I stood there. It was a size small, so I didn’t think it would fit. But after trying it on, I saw that it fit me perfectly, almost as if it was made for me. I showed it to Alan, and his face lit up. He said, “You look really good.” I wondered if it was too low cut. He said, “I wouldn’t wear it to church, but it would be fine on a beach.” He smiled.

It cost $12.99. My dream dress. Nobody knew but God. At that moment, I knew I was going to the Bahamas. I can’t explain it, but this was the first step that led to us going to the Bahamas. This was the day before my speaking engagement in Oregon, so I hadn’t made money yet. I had no idea how God was going to provide for it, but I knew from the moment that dress fit, that we were going to the Bahamas.

Back home in Spokane, I found the second article of clothing for the Bahamas. I was walking around the house one Saturday afternoon, when I saw a coupon clipped to the board for the Salvation Army, for 30% off clothing. I suddenly felt a surge of peace, and I wanted to go there. I told Alan I wanted to go to a resale shop, and he said, “Bye.”

When I drove up, I saw that all the items in the entire store were 50% off. It was the first time I saw a 50% off sale at this store. There are four resale shops in this area, and strangely, this was my favorite because the clothes prices were so low. For some bizarre reason, I was looking at the evening gowns, and I found a gorgeous turquoise evening gown for $8 (which cost $4 with the sale). I tried on the dress, and it fit me perfectly. I looked like a mermaid. I pulled my hair up, and I thought the dress would look lovely on a cruise. I felt so much joy, I almost started crying. It was similar to how I felt about the white dress.

On other days I found other clothing for the cruise, all from resale shops. I prayed for specific items. For example, since it was the summer, I wanted some shorts. I also wanted cute jeans that fit me properly. I wanted all my clothes to be super attractive, since that’s the whole point of a honeymoon. God provided every little thing I asked. God is good.

I want to pause to say God is good. I’ve been through a lot of pain in my life, a lot of horrible things that have sometimes seemed beyond my ability to endure. A couple of times I thought I had lost my mind with grief. But I’m telling you that through it all, God is present. God will pour Himself into you in your moments of greatest horror, and then later He will turn around and surprise you by giving you something extraordinary. But the greatest gift is always God Himself.

(Stay tuned for part 3 of my Bahamas trip, where God set the finishing touches in place before our departure…)